attention: hardcore Shawols, this post will probably upset you, so avoid or read with salt. The things I talk about are highly subjective, so even if you get butthurt and try to tell me I’m a bumbling poopie, and Minho is the super-angel-death-ray-ultimate-prince-of-the-universe, I probably won’t change my mind. I am not insulting anybody, like “Minho is a bumbling poopie”, but keeping it within professional courtesy– I judge them by their personality and music, both of which they are paid as paid idols to keep up.
This post has actually been a long time in the brewing, since the beginning of June. I’ve been thinking about this for a while.
I’m having a crisis of faith.
My blog’s first anniversary just passed around a month ago; my first few posts were about sanitary posture, and some imaginary pudding on Minho’s face. I’ve come a long way since then, and when this summer first started, I set out with the ambitious goal of “watch all SHINee stuffs.”
I diligently made my 30 posts on shineee.net, and I accessed the MVP Vault. So far, I’ve only gotten through 1/4 of it all, and I have no plans to continue. Instead, I watched half of City Hunter, three-quarters of My Girlfriend is a Gumiho, rewatched Idol Maknae Rebellion, watched bits of Japanese Hana Yori Dango, my favorite old episodes of Dragonball Z, and started with Veronica Mars again.
I suppose it’s disenchantment.
Onew uses the same gags over and over again. Right now, he’s not really the great MC that South Korean tabloids make him out to be– if you watch him on Night Owl, he’s perpetually cut out. Onew is not especially a strong leader, these days, it feels more like a title rather than a position of power; it’s different in Big Bang– you think GD checking members cell phones. This is not a bad thing, SHINee is a balanced group, so having to call one a leader is a bit superfluous.
I tried watching Dream Team, but unless you’re glued to Minho‘s looks and subtle hyungwhoring, there’s really nothing else.
Key is funny in that ‘diva’ style, but I much prefer Onew-style gags, silly and immature. Key is more of a niche rather than mainstream entertaining (sorry to the seething Lockets out there).
Taemin.. um.. he has a massive amount of fans now, and if I can read correctly on tumblr, most of it is because he has finally morphed into sexy and mature. Fine. But his personality hasn’t gotten any funnier or has shed that ‘innocent-doe’. Now that I’ve gotten deeper in the kpop industry, I’m highly skeptical these ubiquitous cutesy personalities are real. I know a great many of born-in-Korea-lives-in-Korea-Koreans, and none of them act like a typical ‘cute’ kpop idol. So the appeal of his personality to me isn’t that great.
Well, how about my ultimate bias within SHINee, Jonghyun? Surely I haven’t lost my pork chops for him, right? Honestly, after my three Immortal Song reviews, I seriously questioned whether I could love him as a singer first and foremost. He amazed me in the beginning with his ability as a singer, but lately he has been lip-syncing and just stagnating in general. I don’t believe it’s enough to be great at what you do, you need to be continually pushing the limits and improving; something that Lady Gaga definitely understands.
Yet, the reality show that I absolutely loved everyone on was Hello Baby– though earlier this year, I reached the conclusion that it was heavily scripted. Indeed, if you watch their show appearances from their debut era, like the New Zealand photoshoot, Flower Boys’ Generation, they’re really not that funny or entertaining to watch– as the name of the latter show suggests, most viewers are tuning in because they are very pretty boys-next-door.
Other than Jonghyun for a fleeting while, I’ve never really thought of them as personally attractive to me. Yes, they are all very handsome, but I have weird tastes and I have man-crushes on people like Tamaki Hiroshi (whenever I say Chiaki-senpai, it’s literally a squeal), Matsumoto Jun, Mizushima Hiro, Daichi Miura, Lee Minho. So, just staring at SHINee’s pictures on a computer screen isn’t enough for me.
I also freely acknowledge that SHINee musical repertoire isn’t that great either. They’ve got only one classic song: Replay. When SHINee stops its activities, the only song that people will sing in karaoke is Replay. Sure, the diehard fans will continuing hitting replay on other songs, and electronic freaks (me) will bang out Lucifer once in a while, but really. I’m not quite sure people will blast Juliette and Ring Ding Dong.
This all culminates towards a minimal point in my love for SHINee nowadays.
So if I have quibbles about their (fake) personalities, questionable musician abilities, why do I still fangirl them.. is it a habit? Do I actually have a deep-seated obsession that can’t be erased? Am I doing it because I just have this horribly out-of-control Jonghyun bias?! None of these choices are very good.
Of course, I just spent $175 and bunches of other monies on hotel and transportation just to see SHINee in SMTown NYC.